dis·cern·ment noun
1 : the quality of being able to grasp and comprehend what is obscure
my heart and mind have been a bit consumed with trying to discern what are my next life steps...specifically with a job and the house.
i wasn't prepared to have to re-examine or restart my life...i didn't foresee this detour.
but i am here and i know that i need to step forward. while of course still being kind and patient with my grieving.
i know i feel ready to bring back some other purpose into my life, in addition to the healing and grieving. i feel the desire to work, to engage, to contribute. one of my friend's daughter asked me what i want to be when i grow up (and thanks for seeing me so "young" that i can still consider this question). i feel there could be so many options ahead of me...my photography, counseling, returning to higher education/college work. and yet i will confess that my sense of hope and trust still feel broken (not to mention that the current status of our economy doesn't do much to encourage me).
and my house, my home. i love this space. mike and i were blessed by this space. but it also feels like a lot to bear by myself. so do i sell? do i try to stay?
these are not questions i want to ask or have to answer by myself...
so i continue to ask for your prayers for discernment, wisdom and to be bearers of hope for me...and i do welcome any advice, expertise, or job offers!
1 : the quality of being able to grasp and comprehend what is obscure
my heart and mind have been a bit consumed with trying to discern what are my next life steps...specifically with a job and the house.
i wasn't prepared to have to re-examine or restart my life...i didn't foresee this detour.
but i am here and i know that i need to step forward. while of course still being kind and patient with my grieving.
i know i feel ready to bring back some other purpose into my life, in addition to the healing and grieving. i feel the desire to work, to engage, to contribute. one of my friend's daughter asked me what i want to be when i grow up (and thanks for seeing me so "young" that i can still consider this question). i feel there could be so many options ahead of me...my photography, counseling, returning to higher education/college work. and yet i will confess that my sense of hope and trust still feel broken (not to mention that the current status of our economy doesn't do much to encourage me).
and my house, my home. i love this space. mike and i were blessed by this space. but it also feels like a lot to bear by myself. so do i sell? do i try to stay?
these are not questions i want to ask or have to answer by myself...
so i continue to ask for your prayers for discernment, wisdom and to be bearers of hope for me...and i do welcome any advice, expertise, or job offers!
2 comments:
I am amazed at how often God brings you to my mind to pray for you. I will continue to pray for these specific requests (job, home). I wish I had a job to offer you. I love your photography! Perhaps you can do some photos for us after we bring our daughter home from China. :)
kelly, you are an amazing woman and I do continue to pray for you on this journey in foreign territory. You give your heart a voice that lets us know how we can give you support and help. Go slow...feel deeply...one small step at a time. We are here for you.
Post a Comment