Growing up I was told that I could do anything I put my mind to and regardless of being a "girl" that didn't mean I wasn't capable of accomplishing anything. I believe in the equality and empowerment of women.
So my confession...I miss having Mike around to do "man" things. House-projects, car maintenance, computer-techy stuff. He was good at that stuff and always took care of those needs. And since Mike's passing, when my car was acting up or my computer was jammed up I found myself mad at Mike for leaving me. And I was mad at myself for feeling incompetent and "needy".
I have wrestled through these domestic issues, reading my car's manual about a broken windshield wiper or most recently figuring out how to reset my wireless connection (and I felt like a rockstar when it actually worked!) And I learn to extend grace towards myself....that there's nothing wrong in feeling "needy" or desiring a man's presence.
So my confession...I miss having Mike around to do "man" things. House-projects, car maintenance, computer-techy stuff. He was good at that stuff and always took care of those needs. And since Mike's passing, when my car was acting up or my computer was jammed up I found myself mad at Mike for leaving me. And I was mad at myself for feeling incompetent and "needy".
I have wrestled through these domestic issues, reading my car's manual about a broken windshield wiper or most recently figuring out how to reset my wireless connection (and I felt like a rockstar when it actually worked!) And I learn to extend grace towards myself....that there's nothing wrong in feeling "needy" or desiring a man's presence.
3 comments:
You Rock my World, BLUE!!!!!!!
great pic! love it!
Hey Kell,
My mom - through divorce - feels that way too, sometimes.
I love that picture. Thank you for your honesty and for letting us not only wrestle through this with you, but see your heart as you wrestle with it - you are such an example. I will continue to pray for strength for you in the times when you need strength, and for the ability to be weak when God wants to be your strength for you in a special way.
Love you, Kelly.
Shelly
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