well summer has finally hit us...i won't complain about the hot steamy temps, especially after our long winter.
thank you for everyone's support, encouragement and celebration about my new job...i'm in my third week and feel very affirmed that this will be a great experience. everyone at ada has been very welcoming and helpful as i transition in. some of the exciting projects i'm working on are helping develop a marriage mentoring and individual mentoring program. perhaps the biggest challenge is adjusting to working full-time again. but the piles of laundry and my overgrown lawn can wait! i welcome the fullness of my days...
i've been thinking about laboring these past few days...it's almost been nine months since mike left us. and in an interesting contrast to my loss my dear friends curt and kristin have been expecting their third baby these past nine months.
death and life mingled.
they welcomed their son, levi this week. he's tiny, beautiful, perfectly designed. my heart is filled with joy for them!
i feel like i'm going through my own labor...but i don't feel fully formed yet. but every day i do feel a piece of me is healed, put back together, or rediscovered. and every day there's a moment where i am lonely, i ache for mike.
the other day i was shopping for "work" clothes and found myself in the men's section eyeing some sweaters and shirts that i thought would look great on mike. i loved shopping for him. but as i stood there i thought i have no reason to admire these clothes. i felt silly crying over a men's sweater in the Gap...
but grief doesn't make sense, it's messy and clumsy. these are my labor pains.
thank you for everyone's support, encouragement and celebration about my new job...i'm in my third week and feel very affirmed that this will be a great experience. everyone at ada has been very welcoming and helpful as i transition in. some of the exciting projects i'm working on are helping develop a marriage mentoring and individual mentoring program. perhaps the biggest challenge is adjusting to working full-time again. but the piles of laundry and my overgrown lawn can wait! i welcome the fullness of my days...
i've been thinking about laboring these past few days...it's almost been nine months since mike left us. and in an interesting contrast to my loss my dear friends curt and kristin have been expecting their third baby these past nine months.
death and life mingled.
they welcomed their son, levi this week. he's tiny, beautiful, perfectly designed. my heart is filled with joy for them!
i feel like i'm going through my own labor...but i don't feel fully formed yet. but every day i do feel a piece of me is healed, put back together, or rediscovered. and every day there's a moment where i am lonely, i ache for mike.
the other day i was shopping for "work" clothes and found myself in the men's section eyeing some sweaters and shirts that i thought would look great on mike. i loved shopping for him. but as i stood there i thought i have no reason to admire these clothes. i felt silly crying over a men's sweater in the Gap...
but grief doesn't make sense, it's messy and clumsy. these are my labor pains.
3 comments:
So eloquently said, Kelly. xx
Your words are so powerful Kelly. Every bit as much as that beautiful image. That image seriously takes my breath away. It's timeless. And her smile is SO beautiful.
after we lost jack, i found myself crying over things i never thought would bring me to tears...and places i never thought i would ever cry. it is such an honest place to be..yet, so very vulnerable too. crying tears for you tonight because of moments like these- the honest and the vulnerable.
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