Monday, March 09, 2009

We're not dancing, we're limping, but it's the best that we can do.

Linford Detweiler (Over the Rhine)

I mentioned a few posts back that I was in the midst of some really bad days. I found my way out of that week. Learned some lessons. Can't say that I've had great days since then, but I'm "limping" through them.

A few updates...

I did find some direction about selling my house and searching for a job. I realized that I'm not ready to go through the selling/moving process. It feels like another loss and I don't know if my heart can take it. While death gave Mike peace, it seems to have left ripples of destruction in my life. I lost my love, our dreams and possibilities won't be fulfilled, my photography career has to pause.

And I am aware of the desire and need for purpose in my life. So seeking out a job seemed to be more of a life-giving venture. So for now the house will remain my home and I am working on my resume and searching for job opportunities. Hopefully once I have a job I'll know what my options are for the house.

I'm anxious for spring to arrive, to see green, to smell fresh earth, feel the sun. Maybe it will bring some more renewal to my spirit.

3 comments:

Erin Morgan said...

Prayers were answered!! You're a brave and noble woman! and God continues to bless you in these small moments! I'll continue to pray!

Deanna said...

Hi, my friend. Praying that God will give you wisdom, direction, and peace during these difficult days. Love you so much! I'm proud to have you as my friend and admire your courage as you face each new day....

Fran said...

ahover the rhine appearing 4/4 at Festival of Faith & Music Calvin
will help you dance again